2006 – the end of another year. A fantastic year, lots of tears shed for various reasons; bitter sweet memories that could never be forgotten.
2006 – also allowed me to gain insights, knowing some people better; especially my 2 flatmates.
2006 – the start of my medical study, something that initiate a lot of self doubts (and tears) especially in the beginning of the year.
2006 – the year in which I realize, that I am falling for a friend.

But let’s start from the beginning.

Beginning of the year, I moved in with 2 of my good friends. Things were great – even though there were times when their antics stressed me out. And yet, after some time, things ran smoothly. With S, I felt comfortable – in a way, I see her as a younger sister whom I never had. And with D, her spontaneity at times amaze me. With them, I felt loved and cared for, definitely friends that I want to keep around.

The year also sees me as a medical student – something that I have aspire to do for years. The semester started with orientation party and got together and .. more parties and Parties and PARTIES! Yet, things aren’t that easy-going. And not long before the semester started, self doubts and unanswered questions began to loom inside my head. Things especially got intense near exam times, when classmates started to drop in number. And when a classmate, P, cracked under pressure – it got me scared. Really frightened. I remembered crying, sad, afraid.

And these were the times when I turned to a friend. Someone that I have known for some time. Even though I never revealed my ‘irrational’ fear after seeing P to him, he actually seem to understand me. This friend, who shall remain nameless at this point, reminds me of the things that I have forgotten – my youngerself aspirations and drive to study. Perhaps he has known me better that what I have given him credit for, after all, I turned to him last year too whenever things got me down. And I don’t remember when exactly it happens, but sometime around this year, I realize, that I am falling for him, for real.

Now, it is the end of the year. What have I achieved so far?

Yes, I am glad to have friends like S and D. We might have our own ups and downs, but we are definitely close. As for my study – I thank Allah the Almighty for everything that I have achieved so far. Sure there were hard times struggling, failing tests miserably but in the end, Thank God, I pass with some excellent remarks from several disciplines. ^_^
*cough* and that friend? Heh. We are still friends. I respect him, I have high regards for him and he is slowly becoming one of the few persons in the world that I trust.