You see my smile? You hear my laugh? You feel my presence? Just dont look into my eyes. Maybe you think I am not being genuine. But it is just me, emotionally distant. Very robotic, if you want to put it that way.

When you weep in front of me and just need to be comforted - I am sorry that I am just not 'emotionally' there. I could not look at your tear-stricken face - and despite your sobbing, my face will still be expressionless. And I could not bring myself to you, perhaps I look a little bit withdrawn. And instead of comforting words, there will perhaps be no meaningful exchanges except maybe a few lame jokes and awkward laughs escaping from me. And if you are expecting a bear warm hug, disappointedly, you wont get it from me.

Since when have I been this withdrawn, you think? Robotic me? I dont know. Maybe since forever? Haha! Yes, I am not good at expressing or I am not good around 'expressive' people too. hoho! Or maybe I am just not a good friend.. not emotionally anyway.