I am in such a foul mood now. Frustrated, very much disgruntled and downright annoyed. Pah! Whatever lah. pfft.

The annoyance sparked last night, very late in the night when I was working on some long due project. Halfway through the presentation, while rehearsing the synchronization and frantically searching for suitable music track only to realize that my CD collections only consist of hip hop / punkish rock music that would definitely be deemed unsuitable. Argh! Then, trying to find some tracks on the net proved to be not as easy as I thought it would be and after hours of flipping through some jazz then country then instrumental music, I decided to call it quit. Then, the presentation aint the movie-type clips that I so wanted it to be - and trying to redo it again on another program - argh, I wasn't so keen on doing it anymore. And I asked myself, what's the use?

I felt pretty much drained last night. Yes. What's the use for me to spend hours working on something when people do not care anyway? I am just about to give up, entirely. Yes, I could spend hours working on some sort of advert, in the hope that people, for once, will support and actually contribute. But you know what? It seems like just a vain hope. A useless, hopeless situation when people just don't bother. I checked my emails regularly, hell yeah, I did, dont ask me why. And each time, I knew it before I even reached the inbox that there wont be any new mails or articles submissions. For the magazine.

Yes. I meant it for the magazine. The 2007 Magazine. The same one that I have tried emailing everyone few times early this year. In which everyone is just as vigilant in ignoring my plead of articles submission. Such a supportive group, I know. And I have given up working on the students' association website too. Hah. Pretty soon, the site will only remain just like a ghost of its former existence. Or maybe it has. Whatever. With the (lack of) support, submissions or even ideas or any form of feedbacks, you can be pretty assured that nothing is going to work fine.

I've give up.

Really I have.

Or maybe I am just letting off my steam here.. just like I usually do. Heh.