Sometimes, when you thought you had taken a few steps ahead, you realized that you had actually been stepping on the same big square all along. Sometimes, when you thought you had left the big square, you were knocked back to square one. All your efforts so far were pretty much futile - because in the end, you were still in the same square anyway.

Anyway, yesterday, I went to my GP's clinic for my attachment only to find out she had changed her shift to another afternoon. So, like a true calm person (not really. heh) I panicked and then found myself another GP. Yes, I was disappointed with the change; especially since I had started working on my case write up - which is now nearly impossible to continue. Hrm. Back to square one. There should be a silver lining of this happening.

Anyway, m pretty happy with this attachment so far. I have to be truthful here, before I started on this run, I wasnt looking forward to it. Having started on 10 weeks of surgical run, I felt like I had fall in love with surgeries and theatres and scrubs and ED and needles and the hospital environment and the likes. I had thought that doing GP run would be paled in comparison to what I had been up to in my surgical teams..

And I am actually very pleasantly surprised with this GP attachment so far. At the very least, the one-on-one attachment means that I dont have to compete for my doctor's attention with other students. And I found that, although there werent any exciting surgeries to scrub in or observe in this run, I could still have the thrill of playing with needles and having more hands on experience and actually spending more time talking with the patients. I especially love how my GPs seemed to know their patients on a more personal level than do the surgeons with their inpatients.

Having said that, I still indeed do miss surgeries. I still indeed do wish that I could scrub in. I still indeed do miss the hospital environment. On how I used to see familiar faces lurking down the corridor, on how I used to frantically finished writing up notes during lightning fast ward round, on how Ann and I used to hang around a bit and talked to few patients that captured our attentions, on how I used to find a table at Medici and sat with fellow colleagues who are on different teams, on how I tend to see my neighbours more during lunchperiod, on how I saw the majestic king.. oh on so many things..

Anyway, enough of that memory-polishing. I know one day I might miss my GP run too (maybe). The best thing to do now is to enjoy every minute I have in this run. And of course, to complete my assignments.. yikes! >.< Its already 2nd day of the 2nd week; and smartly enough I have not even thought of a topic to do my research on.. and now, I need to start all over again to find another patient for my casestudy. Oh joy!