M back for lunch. Back in my cosy little room. I love this. Its nice to be back for meal. Its nice to be able to be home for meals. Sometimes anyway. M starting my GP attachment this week. Overall, it has been alright.. I'll talk about this maybe in my next post or something..

Somethings been bothering me lately. Maybe bothering is too strong a word to be used.. but these fleeting thoughts, well.. they are there anyway. Fleeting; they come and they go. Sometimes, they stayed longer in my mind than they should be. Sometimes, they mingled with each other and had a blast in my mind, rocking inside my skull, thudding, leaving me with minimal amount of concentration left. You see, thoughts can be disturbing.. especially the unwelcome ones. Maybe I'll just list some of them here..

- I havent talked to most of my closest friends. The reason? I was busy. I am busy. I will always be busy. Maybe when you get right down to it, I never made the effort to be less busy. Its like a vortex sucking me in, but I never even made the effort to crawl out of it.

- I havent wished mom a Happy Mothers Day. Not because I've forgotten the special day, but just because ... I didnt. And no, I wasnt that busy either. I just didnt want to call. Not even sending a short text. because.. I miss mom so much and I didnt want my voice to start quavering on the phone.

- I felt guilty for arguing over silly little things with the robot. I had crumpled my anger into balls and flung them across the room, straight to the trash can.

- Am no longer that excited for my june holiday. Hrm.. Maybe I'll try looking at the trash can this coming weekend, I might have accidentally thrown away my enthusiasm too.

Thats pretty much it., oh yea, I saw lots of little kids this time around during my attachment. So cute. I miss my nephews and nieces too. One of these days, when I am a chirpy little bird twittering happily and dancing on the tree branch, I might start calling home again.