silence of the night envelope me as i type this out, punctuated only by the incessant tapping of my fingers against the keyboard. this silence is suffocating, and yet, it is better than those moments whereby i sit idly pressing my ear to the phone, to piercing tone of endless ringing tones. those moments are becoming more and more frequent these days, believe it or not. those moments of unanswered longing and crashing hope as i clutch my heart and silently pray for the phone to be picked up. it is following idle moments like tonight that i am thinking a lot. but these thoughts all end up in loops. endless circulating thoughts that i can never tell where it starts or where it ends. i am darn confused. argh. but really, nothing is more agonizing than listening to the non-stop ringing piercing my eardrum and shooting straight to my heart like an arrow. :'(