m not sure just how many people still read this blog.. but anyway, am now back in kiwi land. left brunei last saturday and i remembered crying in my sister's arms just moments before i stepped into the departure hall. i didnt know what was so different about my departure this time, but i remembered feeling all freaked out and heavy hearted - as if that was my first time being abroad. i guess it all came down to knowing that my carefree days were over.

one of the things i did over the past two weeks was visiting my grandma. i couldnt believe just how frail she looked then - how could she aged so much over the course of six months that i had not seen her? grandma that i left six months ago was someone full of old times stories - but grandma that i saw recently was someone who could not even remember who i was. she only remembered who i was before i had to leave, as i held her, afraid of crushing her frail physique as she cried to my shoulders. aduii.. everyone's been telling me that its normal, she's old and becoming more forgetful. i do wonder though, is this a sign of the onset of her dementia? now, i could only pray for her good health.



i didnt do much over the holidays, which was just how i wanted it. only met up with the poppiahs at qlap once, catching up. Fatin got engaged last friday too, congratulations dear! aduii.. m sorry i couldnt attend your big event. =.= but i hope i will be there to see your wedding. amiin.
(pix stolen from Liyana's fb)





everyone else is a graduate or will be graduating soon, its weird as i am still a full time student. it is only now that i realize just how long medicine course is.. someone recently said that she had thought about doing administrative works after completing her medical degree - and funnily enough, sometimes i wonder about the same thing too. what if i am not where i am now?

the past two weeks too, my sister and i were night ninjas as we tiptoed quietly upstairs to our room wayyyy past midnights after our nightly outings. one of her friends was actually very much convinced that i was wild and smoke and drink and up to all sorts of nonsense over in new zealand. LOLs. Heck. I am not.



over here, i am such a geek. haha. even more so now that my final exams is in four months' time. aduii =.= i am currently doing my paediatrics run now, which is not too bad. i think i enjoy handling kids better than screaming mommies in labour. Haha! two weeks holidays gone so fast; it feels like ive only daydream of being back in brunei. there are still so many things i want to do in brunei, and delicacies that i havent had the chance to please me palate for. Heh. And for that reason and many other reasons, my dear family and friends, expect me to be back in brunei again sometime this year. =) InsyaAllah.