i know what i want and i want what i need. one too many maybes and we all get too poetical. why the dichotomy and the discordant? why does it have to be so many stories and drama? twenty three years gracing this earth should have told us both that we are not living in a theatrical drama, where everything is scripted and plotted. life is not a stage where i am just playing a part, and nor it is a playground where you are just playing games. twenty three years and arent we just too old to still be playing mind games?

you mentioned those videos on youtube and i just had to watch every single episode of the series. i just had to laugh, thinking how you would have laughed loudly too. those were the earlier days when talking and sharing were so easy. those were the days when dissent and suspicions were not the main ingredients of conversations. those were the days unlike today when i felt like a drug addict who had just gone cold turkey.

cacophony of voices in my mind echoing my thoughts. maybe, if i go back then i wouldnt have taken things for granted. maybe i would have bitten back my cutting remarks and swallow my qualms - just so that i could look back, wide eyed instead of averting eye gazes.

but cynicisms has changed everything. and i know that i no longer trust you, like i did before. things whirled by us too fast perhaps, but now, in a blink its gone.