So the year 2009 has finally left me. It has been a long winding tortuous year, full of little snippets of life and drama – I don’t even know where to begin this post. I had began my year with a cupful of optimism and positive spirits, falsely thinking at that time that the year was just going to breeze by quickly. Heck, my early weeks of the year had gone so fast, too fast that I had a hard time keeping up with meeting strangers-turned-friends and catching up deadlines – that in the end, it took me by surprise at how my 2009 was just going to stretch itself to beyond 364 days.



Coming back to Christchurch was something else… I had missed home and my loved ones too much. I pinpointed it to stresses of exams and assignments that made me homesick.. even though if I was to be honest to myself, there were other factors that came into play too. Workwise, I had felt the immense stress too often – it felt like fifth year had taken me by surprise that I never felt adequately prepared to match its expectations. I had struggled to meet datelines for assignments, I had developed tolerance to coffee too fast, I had fun harassing little kids for examinations (hah. I kid), I had been traumatized by orthopaedics surgeons’ incessant questionings, I had been reaffirmed of my fears of vagina (which further nullifies my choice of doing obs gynae as a career in the future) and I had questioned my own abilities and capability to do medicine too many times.

Despite that, I found what I love. =) I love kids, but I learnt the hard way that maybe, it wasnt for me… However, nothing so far topped my passion for psychiatry. You know how sometime ago, back in 4th year when I had just started my clinical rotations and wasn’t sure of what I inclined to do in the future? Well, now, I think, I can finally say that I am seriously considering psychiatry. It is a field of medicine that I enjoy the most, intrigue me the most and interest me the most. That’s good isn’t it? I finally have an ambition!!!



Anyways, I finally can say happy 2010!! Tonight, is my new years eve. I have finally able to crawl away from 2009. It had been a dragging year, with a plateful of crushed hopes and disappointments… but that’s a story for another time.

So, here’s to a blessed year ahead.