1. yesterday, i made myself a bowl of chicken porridge. the last time i had porridge was a few months ago, with you feeding me spoonfuls of them. you were like a little boy, proud of your creation as you presented to me your first homemade dish. do you know that yesterday, as i stirred my own porridge on the stove, i thought of you?

2. glorious boxing day sales - throngs of shoppers at the mall, each clutching multitudes shopping bags. i have always love malls - but do you know that, watching liverpool merchandise already enough to send me reeling to go home?

3. went through my stash of items in the drawers - boxes opened, jewelleries picked, watches arranged - do you know that amidst all these items, they held amazing memories of you?

4. do you know that, when the lights were off, i still remember you? and that, i really am missing you? and yet, i have to fight off these feelings, shutting out these thoughts and really convince myself that you no longer affect me at all.