Numb. Stunned. Then, slowly, stinging tears forming at the corner of my eyes. No. I must fight this. I must not succumb to this. No more tears, no more ... tears. Where is that resolution that I made some time ago? Dont trash it .. yet. Be strong. Isnt that what I have been telling myself all along? Dont let anything to affect me much. And if necessary, mask it. Smile...

Words should not affect me. Words will not affect me. No matter how much they hurt. I will be strong. I am strong. When I ask myself again, I am truly disappointed. Very. Is that what the tears are for?

*sob*