Sometimes, I just need a company. To talk to me, to listen, to be a human. Not a robotic someone who is just there for me for work - efficient in terms of studying and yet, emotionally detached. Someone who will smile genuinely, not just fake smiles pasted on their faces and yet on their minds, my words are meaningless.

Sometimes, I wonder, in the midst of our busy schedule, are we turning colder? More distant? Are we turning into some sort of humanic geekoid robots perhaps? Or are we just like these because of the circumstances? That our tight schedule and busy life take too much of our time, too much of our attention that being a 'human' is a tremendous task?

Sometimes, I just feel like locking myself inside my room too, 24 hours. Just dont want to go out. Why should I creep out of my sanctuary anyway, when I have everything I need in my room? But that is not true - not everything I need is there in my room. Sure it is comfortable - but it lacks affection. It lacks human interaction. And since when is MSN considered a human interaction anyway? Its sad when I think about it.

I am not blaming anyone or anything. Packed schedule, demanding tasks and responsibilities as scholars mean study is our main priority. Just sometimes, I miss everyone. *laughs* oh. Maybe I am just a lonely ol' soul. *laughs* heh. But, do you know that, when you talk to me my friend, that makes my day? ...