Today is one of those days when things didnt seem to go well. No need for me to elaborate the minute little details to depict just how screwed up things are around me and to a certain extent, caused by me - but suffice to say that I felt knocked up, slapped on the face by everything, every little wrong, every little mistake that happened today.

No, I am not writing these just for the benefit of poetic justice, to devour all these verbal diarrhoea for anyone to read, accentuating just how emotionally dysfuntional I seemed to present myself on this blog. But underneath all these verbosity, laid how I really felt - and right now, saying I am not pleased is the understatement of the year.

I told myself, mentally chanting like some sort of a litany, that it is alright. The glimmer of optimism reassuring me that everything that doesnt seem to look fine now, will work its way out. That it is okay. But despite that, I wasnt too convinced. And the day proceeded blindly, leaping through obligations with my mind assiduously thinking of something else.

But at one point, I am being reminded that not too long ago, I vowed that I will not lose my smile in the face of adversity again. Sick of leaky waterworks, have had enough of giving in to the blanket of melancholy, enough of self anger and enough of self blaming. Because, tears could not change anything.

I must remember that, I should. Because behind every black cloud lies a silver lining - and that vision will only be obscured by tears falling.