you may not know this, but last week, the world stopped spinning on its axis. seconds stopped and that one moment just stretched, pregnant with possibilities. the precedented weeks flashed in my mind; i sitting at the back row in leinster room fighting to stay awake, i puzzling over radiographic images trying to make the heads and tails of them, i scrubbing in theatres marvelling at the brutality of orthopaedic surgeries, i gazing intently at the hospital pc reading bluebook minutes before being quizzed by the consultant. despite that, nothing in the previous weeks could prepare me for that day when time just stopped.

my heart skipped a beat before thudding vigorously against my ribcage. i fail, i thought miserably. i could feel it in my bones, i could feel it in every last drop of my blood thats pulsing through my arteries and veins. thats why the violent heartbeats, because deep in my heart, i know, ive failed. i stared at the envelope for an eternity; the cause of anguish, the bringer of woes, the face of reality. i swallowed the heaviness that was beginning to form at the back of my throat and slowly, tore the envelope open.

i couldnt understand a word on the paper. shook my head for the momentary dyslexia, blinked a few times and read it again. confused. then slowly... comprehending. exhaled a sigh of relief, releasing the tightness in my chest as my heartbeats return to normal. i felt lighter, i walk on air.

Alhamdulillah. prayers help. Thank you Allah. =)