felt helpless. frustrated. so many things, too many things. limited time. going round and round. limited memory. or maybe, tiredness just seep in too early. premature fatigue? hrm. coffee is a joke. throbbing head. migrainous. again. why at this time? stupid choice of time aint it? need to concentrate. but on what? you dont know what you dont know till the time comes. what a conundrum. read billions. but forget millions. memory lapse, *blink*. words dont make sense, dyslexia? *blink* stuttering speech. *blink*. too many blinks dont make a good impression. sh*t. nearly there, but not quite. not at this time, please. panicking now. fingers dipping in too many trays. jittery. phone cards on the floor but creditless. sigh. mobile phone left at school. double sigh. unreachable but wanting to be reached. i want to talk. i want to be calmed down. less-than-perfect day. dare i divulge here further? scared. unprepared. almost dumbed down. very frustrated. truncated sentences. this post not making much sense. but heck. whatever. i want to cry my heart out.