today, i am very angry.

prejudice and stupidity goes hand in hand. you are prejudiced and you are stupidly ignorant, disrespecting others whom you regard as aliens, strangers, the weirdos, in your supposedly immaculate world. Hah. immaculate bullshit la, your insolence is tainting this rose-tinted glasses i wear everyday in this world - in which tonight i am desperately clawing for answers to my year-old question: do i really want to be an alien in this land for another twelve months?

i was sitting at one of the rear seats in the bus this afternoon when a voice behind me uttered "remember. a Kiwi man wont marry a muslim woman." what an odd comment to make, i initially thought as i cranked up the volume of my music. however, what i disregarded as just one random comment thrown to no one in particular turned out to be a whole disparaging, one sided verbal attacks on muslims. i was forced to listen, amidst my blaring music, the niagra of malicious remarks and scorns - particularly against muslim women wearing burqa. i sat in awkward silence, turned to the teenage guy sitting across my seat, his ear turning pink - a tale-tell sign of his own embarrassment, and yet, the speaker was unrelenting in raining more and more atrocious comments. minutes before reaching my stop, i pressed the bell and the voice gushed in mock disdain "oh. she probably doesnt understand english. you know how these women are." i turned around, caught her face and smirked, mouthing out 'thank you' in her direction.

thank you for reminding me that in this beautiful world, there are still some repugnant species of humankind roaming freely. i used to think that racist, islam-phobic prejudice creatures are only younsters who havent seen enough of the world and havent yet embraced the concept of multinationalities exist. but today, i was obviously wrong. today, i caught the face of a wrinkled forehead, middle aged white female bigot.

anyways, i need happy thoughts!