almost three years and we had came a long way. almost goodbyes time now and yet we are more like strangers than we were few years ago.



i remember you from my first year of university life, almost six years ago - that small asian girl who always had a smile plastered on her face. that cheery someone who lived just next door to my residential hall. i didnt know you well back then. you were just one familiar face among the ocean of strangers - just someone that i exchanged a few good natured greetings whenever our pathways crossed.

i still remember you from first year here, almost three years ago now. our first year thrown in a different, unfamiliar environment. excited, nervous and yet, somewhat relieved that amongst my boxes of belongings and suitcases, i had also moved to this environment with a handful of familiar faces from my former life. you were one of those persons. you had always been someone with a few words and yet never lacking in friendliness and smiles.

i couldnt recall what exactly had stimulated these changes. but these days, its almost like you have shut down from everyone around you. you live in your own world, unreachable and muted. sometimes, i really wonder where that small smily girl of six years ago had gone.sometimes, i wonder if i could find the remote control that makes you switched us off. sometimes, i look for that little controller so that i could notch up my volume, so that you'll notice. but lately, you have always been too fast to click us shut. i suppose you must have liked the dark blank screen so much.

truthfully though, lately i am just tired. tired of racking up my brain for conversations or comments only to receive no replies or a curt one word answers. i think, this friendship is just too taxing and i am just starting to give up. i cant reach to someone who doesnt want to be reached.

this is me giving up..



sad. six years and it all came down to this.
Few more months and it will be goodbyes time. but i think, you have said your goodbyes eons ago.