Skimmed through my physiology notes - am still stuck in Brain & Behaviour module, for the longest time ever. 2 weeks on-and-off reading the said module, and I have only covered bits and pieces of anatomy, physiology and neuroembryology - thats not even half a module done yet.. And I still have 5 other modules to cover..

Final exams in a month's time, rat race in 2 weeks time. I feel like I am so slow in reading, picking up on these things, revising, memorising. Why oh why does it feel like this? >.< And why do all these medical jargons seem unfamiliar now? ugh ugh ugh. The weekly cal tests are getting on my nerves too. To focus on one thing means to unfocus on another thing - but which is more important? O.O

Today, I spent sometime at the library. Sat at one of the big study tables, trying to appear nonchalant to the intellectual discussions going on around me. Then, the blond girl who sat next to me exclaimed gaily to her friend about her revision stage. Gutted, I reached for my bag and raced out of the library, heaving. The cool free air of the afternoon momentarily cleansed my thoughts, calmed me down. Saw Tae, and we walked side by side to the hospital. I remembered that one of the conversations that we had was pertaining to one of our SI cases that we have done months ago.

These days, exams and the likes become the epicentre of all conversations. Reciting subdivisions of internal iliac artery or reporting on ECG reading or quoting therapeutic dose of local anaesthetics seemed to be the default dialogue.
The other day, I stared dumbfoundedly at the guy in front of me as he described one of the amazing feature of the brain called the "Paramedian Pontine Reticular Formation". My mind vaguely recalled that such thing existed, let alone knowing its exact function. At times like that, I felt like kicking myself.

And at times like these, there are so many thoughts swarming my mind. I think am gonna cry. ~>.<~