"Sometimes, you just cant be sure anymore of anything." I looked up, and for the first time, I saw a friend in him. Which is funny - because he has never been more than just a face in a sea of strangers, everyday strangers. Had never really talked to him despite the fact that we have been thrown to the same group in almost every class and even went to the same place for ecc last june.

But what was uttered is true. Somewhere sometime, I felt like I have lost a part of me that used to be innate. My confidence shattered, blighting my hopes. Once, I decided to pick up the little fragments that was my motivation, moulded them back together, and then sat back, critically analyzing the result of my own patch-up. Once, it used to be embellished in a motley of vibrant colours, but now only a shade of its former vivid self remained..

I cant be sure of so many things these days. Everyday is full of surprises. And I head on anyway, braving whatever surprises the day has in store for me. Somedays, I cheated and stayed locked in my room, glancing through the window at the world outside, unwilling to leave the comfort of my own room. Somedays I was afraid. Afraid to fall when I step forward, afraid to bite when I chew, afraid to hold when it could be lost.

On these days, am still hovering on the land of the unknown, teetering on the uncertainties. Not knowing, not sure of knowing. I just hope the days will be kind and bring me pleasant surprises. And like what my little ninja says: "Tawakkal." =) Sometime next week, I will know for sure and I hope on that day, the rain will stop so that the sun can see the brightest smile on this face.