Few more weeks till my touchdown in Brunei.
Actually, I wish I can be more excited than this. You know, like packing my stuffs happily into my luggage or grinning widely clutching shopping bags for things to bring back home or singing jovially (out of tune) to malay songs while tuning in to Brunei's fm.

In reality, my luggage and bags are still stored away and would not be touched anytime soon. And instead of being all happy and giddy at the prospect of returning to Brunei for this upcoming holidays, I could only feel apprehension. Whatever excitement that is supposed to have emerged from seeing the printed flight tickets in my hand is somehow ... lost. Ugh. I really need to get a grip of that.

Called home a few days ago. My lil niece asked where I am and when I'll balik again. aww.. she misses me, kesian her. I evaded the question and proceeded to ask about her school. She said classes ended already. oh. ooops, I dont know that. And she asked me again how come I balik brunei late this year, later than the previous years when I came home earlier than this.
hrm. smart girl. Inquisitive.. even though only 5 years old. Already in my mind I could see her as a lawyer, bombing me with all sort of questions.

If theres one thing I am looking forward to this holiday, its meeting her. And my little baby nephew Hafiz again. Ok lah, Hafiz is already 4 years old, hardly a baby. But I still consider him a little baby anyway. haha. Miss both of them terribly. And of course my parents. And seeing my grandma too. Oh my cute little grandma... but nothing else makes me longing that much to going back.

Maybe m being selfish. And silly. After all, wasnt I the one who said I was homesick just weeks ago? :S uh.. entahlah.. Heh. I dont even get me sometime, so how can I expect anyone to?
But you know what? I actually dont mind that my time in Brunei will be cut short to only 7 weeks this time. To tell you the truth, somehow.. m actually glad.