I could never quite understood why someone could argue so much with me on everything. Or how each and every conversation we had would eventually turned into a heated discussion and ultimately led to arguments. And I meant, each and every conversation; regardless of how insignificant the subject matters seemed to be. And how, ironically the epicentre of each topic under these debates is usually concerning me.. (wth?) :S
I have always thought; if an argument could be avoided, then why would anyone allow such dissent to breed in the friendship? If one could compromise, why would one mutually disregard the other's opinions and refuse to see the other person's point of view.. which is essentially what fight is all about. Why blew up the small matter to a bigger deal, when both persons were really compatible and understood each other well?
Really. I have never argued and debated so much with any other people before I met this friend. -____________-"
He, who argued every mundane little thing with me. He, who had never agreed much on my point of views (and neither I to him) and argued with me on every little thought. He, who got me pissed off at him real bad because he seemed to have this uncanny ability to justify everything, even supposedly unjustifiable things. He, who could find reasons to start a fight, even when there was essentially none to spark it in the first place, like finding fault in MY pm on msn -_____-" Argh! That was last night and I could not believe that I stayed up till late just to justify to him my "n00b =____= " pm on msn when everyone else, every other sane person, would never care let alone argue with me on THAT. -_________-"
Confused, and out of weariness of incessant bickerings we seemed to have each time, I asked him last night why were we fighting so much. For he was the one who claimed that he knew me so well. tetapi tidak... -___-" Because if he did, he would know that I hate fightings. I hate squabbles. I hate bickerings. I dont mind occassional arguments and debates, but not all the time..? Not when every sentence that I typed would only invite him to argue with me.
I hate the turmoil of emotions that stirred me whenever I argued with someone; the annoyance and frustration of having my mind seemingly unheard of by the other party; and then feeling confused and upset for having to argue so much when that could actually be avoided.
But he reasoned that these debates are good, stimulating and challenging to our own minds, and just to take them as a healthy academic discourse. @.@ oh tell me, just how do I reason with someone who I really really believe have a deep passion for arguing, eh? -____-"
And I do wonder, is it really healthy if that happens each time? Sometimes, I think, I DO need a break from these .. (no?) and sometimes, I wish that for once, we could have a good conversation like any other persons I talk to, without so much of a disagreement. I think that could beat hours of argument. no? :S
And what I couldnt understand is... why do I still stand having these arguments (when I said that I hated them in the first place) with him when I could just block him off my list and forever be arguments-free. And I couldnt comprehend it either of why does he not do the same thing when he said that these arguments bore him to death too? Heh. And I just dont get it why we just cant have normal, quarrel-free conversations.
Oh are we too different, 2 very different persons with clashing thinking processes? Or maybe we are just too alike; extremely headstrong, stubborn and vocal in expressing our own viewpoints which make our friendship very much prone to disagreements. But the only thing is, he is this irritating emo-robot with a huge ego who is not programmed to accede to every precious gem that I uttered. HAHA! =p
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